Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Hey i spent another afternoon-post darkness in the j-lab, but this time Teresa was there with me cuz ....she's involved in nano wri mo, well i got a lot accomplished such as running up and down from the 800 hall to the 400 hall and discovered that...the library color laser dosen't like me ..oh well

got to finish this stupid horoscope: yes harry you will die
Posted 11/30/2005 at 10:4 PM

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

okay so it's been called to my attention that I need to explain myself

1) I'm not mad at Ben, i'm just want to whack him with his "Peace and Tranquility" cuz no offense but that's just like a rip off from Daoism dude and I'm not believing this stuff, let go? well i have been trying for the past three years, and guess what: I DIDN'T BUILD A FUCKING BOAT AT ALL BEAT THAT

2) I'm not mad @ anyone, i'm mad at myself
i don't like what I have been doing for the past ...three years of high school and it's ending now

3) what's ending? Giving up on guys, cause they are meaningless
what else is ending: i'm basically becoming a nun w/e dosen't matter,

4) i'm burning all my shit that remind me of everything that I can't stand, possibly the negatives of photos but Mandy persuaded me to do otherwise

I just don't like what I have been seeing in the mirror: this girl who has let her hair down cuz ...of what..., this girl who cried over some asshole in her bed after she read sisterhood of the traveling pants...this person who put on lavendar body splash going bowling cuz she'll see this person that she thought she liked but wait: she never liked anyone
she's just been lying to herself and she can't stand it,
why did you buy the $8 bottle of lavendar crap from bath & body? i don't know at all, i thought that it would smell good and make me feel happy...uhh wrong
i'm not even going to try, trying sucks what does it do, it makes me realise that I'm a total idiot and i shouldn't try anymore, so fuck it , and i don't want this idea to come towards me, i'm not a distress signal so don't come near me, i don't want you ..i don't need this emotion of love to stalk me cuz i hate being stalked

Posted 11/29/2005 at 12:38 AM

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ME COME OFF IT? NO. YOU COME OFF IT. You see him every fucking day and we don't talk ever so whatever
Posted 12/7/2005 at 11:13 AM by ugivepeasachance

Monday, November 28, 2005

I tried to sneak myself through tried to get to the other side
i tried to patch up the cracks and the holes that i have to hide
for a little bit of time even made it work okay
just long enough to really make it hurt
when they figured me out and it all just rotted away

don't you fucking know what you are?
don't you fucking know what you are?
don't you fucking know what you are?
go on get back to where you belong

you better take a good look cause i'm full of shit
with every bit of my heart i have tried to believe in it
you can dress it all up you can try to pretend
but you can't change anything
you can't change anything in the end

don't you fucking know what you are?
don't you fucking know what you are?
don't you fucking know what you are?
go on get back to where you belong

don't you fucking know what you are?

remember where you came from
remember what you are
remember where you came from
remember what you are
remember where you came from
remember what you are
remember where you came from
remember what you are
remember where you came from
remember what you are
remember where you came from
remember what you are
remember where you came from
remember what you are
remember where you came from
remember what you are
remember where you came from
remember what you are

don't you fucking know what you are? (go on get back to where you belong)
don't you fucking know what you are? (go on get back to where you belong)
don't you fucking know what you are? (go on get back to where you belong)
don't you fucking know what you are? (get back to where you belong
)
Posted 11/28/2005 at 11:17 PM

Sunday, November 27, 2005

you know i wonder to myself right now: what's the point with guys and I realised that I don't need anybody, i am just lying to my own self about everything....why have I been so concerned about men...you know what just fuck it i don't need this

there's no point in me wasting my time over someone, i've been an idiot, i sound like so many people that i hate and i never wanted it at all, what have I been thinking for the past several months??? I don't know and it wasn't me thinking state wise

it's pointless and what is pointless: Guys
there is nothing to fret over, yes their gorgeous and some are nice, some will grip your heart but you know what in the end: it's never beautiful though maybe that's what i just experienced. I don't know about you but for now enjoy yourselfs and then cry over it. though i won't be there and let you cry on my shoulder, there's gonna be a wall and you can lean and cry your fucking head off for all I care.

I don't know why i have been so fucking concerned about what guys think of me, fuck guys fuck you all do you know what you fucking are? (NIN lyric)

Why am such an emotional wreck, i get so fucking depressed about guys that...are across the ocean from me or fuck 2 ft away from me bowling his cynical ass

Everyone is happy w/whoever they are with and that's fine w/me, i don't care about relationships anymore-it makes me sound like a desperate whore wait...that sounds like several people in this fucking world and i don't want that, for now i just want to lie in my bed, blast some NIN and pretend to not hear my mom yell for me.

I'm starting a new era: enough of falling in this emotion that everyone believes in: Love, by the way: does anyone know what the fuck love means. It means nothing; it's just a silly emotion that your head decided to stir in up in your fucked up imagination
i just took a shower-any symbolism in that? yes-it means that I just cleansed myself from everything and i'm starting clean.
screw emotions
i don't need anyone
guys don't like me and I don't give a fucking care
i don't mean anything to guys so and whatever
i am considered not even sexually arousing so fuck you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if a guy comes near me i'm going to TASER YOU!!!!!!!
my only main concern now is working on how i'm going to avoid this stupid emotion and get a drink of water , actually i could use some australian yellow tail or a 2002 Beaujolais ..nah pinot noir is good too
i'm sick of burgundy and merlot mmmm chardonnay
or something sweet like a desert wine though wait i can't buy any ...damn

Things that I have cleansed from my pathetic mind
-guys
-dances
-hanging out w/guys
- winter ball
- prom
-dresses

things that are coming out of my fucking closet
-my dress shoes
-return mandy's dress
-pretty clothes that my mom decided to buy: you know what mom you can wear this if you love it so much

things that i'm never going to do anymore
-clip my hair w/pins
-curl my hair
-let my hair down
-apply anything that smells good on my ugly skin
- not use de frizzle spray
- listen to all this emo shit in comp cuz i'm going to delete all these songs
- hide some photos or burn them
- dance
- just screw you all
-not going to play badminton 5th period cuz i'm wasting my time

-THings i'm going to do
-hide in the dark room
-hide in the j-lab
-work in the dark room
-work in the j-lab
-turning off my cell phone
Posted 11/27/2005 at 2:5 PM

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susan............. I wish you'd tell me more what is up with you. You are acting out and u just need to cool off. don't go to those extreme measures... i dont know what you are hoping to accomplish except alienate yourself from everyone who loves you and cares about you so much. And don't take those horoscopes so seriously I think you are letting them outline your life for you instead of taking each day as it comes and making what YOU want out of it... I am here for you if you need someone to bank on but you know that Ben and I and everyone else (but Ben especially) is just going to give you the cold, hard truth, but it's only to help you. hang in there.


Susan

November
The first week of the month will leave you feeling a little uneasy. Emotionally, you will have gone through some ups and downs. The New Moon on the first of the month is a good time to make goals and start the wheels in motion for something new. However, for you it won't be completely smooth sailing. There may be some challenges to contend with, especially concerning your self-confidence. By the second week you should be a little clearer about what direction to take, but there will still be hurdles to overcome. Frustrating miscommunications could begin to occur from November 14 on for a couple of weeks. Watch for the tendency for emails to get lost, phone messages to get deleted and missed appointments that have a lasting impact. To avoid problems, try to have a backup plan in place, leave lots of notes for yourself and keep copies of correspondence. This influence could take a toll on Gemini, especially around November 17, 21 and 23, but if you are prepared the effects could be less dramatic. A period of unsettling change will lessen as of November 15. This is not a great month for you to make major commitments, final decisions or big life changes. Set goals indeed, but wait until the right time to move on them. Otherwise, you will be met with roadblocks and frustration. Watch the tendency to be rash and impulsive. Taking unplanned risks will cause regret and possible emotional pain.

-uhhh holy shit why is my horoscope that accurate???? miscommunication-DEFINIETLEY
self confidence-THAT TOO

Today's horoscope~

Susan

November 26, 2005
You may feel more and more uncomfortable as the day goes on, Susan. Perhaps you find yourself in conversations in which your tongue is tied - quite a rare spectacle indeed. The problem is that you simply don't know what to say, or if you do, you simply don't feel comfortable saying it in front of the people you are with. Perhaps you feel like you have lost your edge. Do not despair. Remember that this is only a passing trend and that you should return to your full-blown communicative self before you know it.


Posted 11/27/2005 at 1:12 AM

Saturday, November 26, 2005

what the fuck is wrong w/me, i'm not an alcoholic but yet i kept saying that i need a drink now!!!!!!!!!

me: I need a drink...now!!
mandy/ben/blake: .....susan
me: i need a drink rggggggggg

-thanksgiving dinner
me; 'sighs' i need a drink

it's not like...i don't know..i'm not even a fucking alcoholic but ..i just want wine...and i don't get myself drunk..but why is my fucking gut reaction to every horrible situation is MORE LIQUOR??? GEEZ I SOUND LIKE SANDRA OH in Grey's Anatomy
"I'm gonna need liquor lots...and lots of liquor"
Posted 11/26/2005 at 4:42 PM
i got my permit!! BAH!!!!!! wahoooo!!! but i am the most tense person when i'm driving..according to my dad cuz i was not relaxed the whole time when were driving around, and well since yesterday..i uhh scratched my dad's truck/mom's car heheheheh

-hung out w/ppl last night but noo my parents had to flip shit over me again..it's like what the fuck am i goign to do around 8 pm in Boulder...i'm not going to fuck around w/nebrasak fans *shudders but yeah..worst night..totally ruined everything i am a fucking loser
blake-u spilled my hot cocoa!!! it's alright

"and then i punched the dragon and the dragon was like: ALRIGHT!!!!!!!!!!"
Posted 11/26/2005 at 4:38 PM

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA PUNCH IT IN THE FUCKING FACE!!!!!!!!
Posted 11/28/2005 at 2:58 PM by ugivepeasachance

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

I MET THE JOE!!!!!!!! he is quite coool!! though not as maxed like maxx hehehehhe

i got to so much crap aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
french project-screw it
apush-read crap
write more things
get ready for xmas
hang out w/peri
FILM FESTIVAL GARRRRRRR

Posted 11/23/2005 at 12:43 PM

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

whoo to kick off the 2005 thanksgiving week i have been painting mandy's great-aunt's condo...we have made an extreme makeover (ik quite cliché) to the putrid pink walls...to the pleasant color of white *sigh of relief

WWVI continues, it's frigging scary seeing mrs.varlese getting angry..ahh no joke
mandy: it's alright calmez-vous

-ben scare the bejesus out of me when he happened to text my mobile around 11 pm on saturday night when i was @ Mandy's , see it was sitting on her opium table and i didn't know it was on "normal"=LOUD RING/VIBRATION..so i was reading my apush reader book and then BLAMMM!!! *RING RING
me: OH GEEZ!!! *freaking out the nasus way..jumping out from the carpet..scrambling away from the awakened phone, tries to put it in my hand but then flings it out of hand cuz the phone is freaking out and..it hit a cinder block (not hard at all)
me: WHO THE FUCK IS CALLING ME @ 11 pm??? Oh it's a text....*scrolls down....grrr BEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have the following resources for a good break
-FUJI 3200 finepix digital camera with a giant memory card + full batteries (though I tried to document mandy on video...so far no sound I am really confused)
-16 rolls of FUJI 800 film
-my Pentax ZX-30
- yearbook photo account in my hands muhahaha cuz no uses film but ME!! that's right!!
-Nokia mobile (umm i went 30$ over on my bill thank god it wasn't 175$ the lady subtracted 100 from the sum *phew) i swear to not go over!!
-loads of music
-20 blank discs
-8 colorful sharpies
-my compy
-basically my room to sleep, hang out, make mixes, and do some homework (which is minor)
-and my whole week to excersise my ass off (i am pyshched)

I GOT PAID 140$ I CANNOT BELIEVE IT, I didn't think that i was going to get paid..and I DIDN'T EVEN WANTED money cuz..hey i inhaled paint fumes, got pizza+ cinnastix (deprived from these delictable things) and water..and a fun weekend

Inside jokes~ for the paint job
BLESSS YOU!!!!!
burning that pizza
wheeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!
MUSIC GOULET!!!!
ONION!!!
WHY HE IS TALKING LIKE THAT?? (HEAVY BROOKLYN ACCENT)
WHAT DOES HE EAT? (HEAVY NY BROOKLYN ACC)

when i came back from painting on satuday night, i discovered that my parents made dumplings (bao zi) and i was like :GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *stuffs a dumpling in my mouth
aunt: ...i'm assuming that ur really hungry
me: uhh no duh!!! (no shit)
Posted 11/21/2005 at 2:50 PM

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I am so jealous. You have a camera, money, music, discs, et. al. You are sooo lucky.
Posted 11/22/2005 at 11:51 PM by gottuff104

Thursday, November 17, 2005

i urge everyone who has not viewed the film "Phantom of the opera" to GO SEE IT!!!

Also one must see
-Harry Potter IV
- Wallace and Gromitt
- Amelie
- Love Actually
and Ocean's 11 (great music)

more coming soon
god he is beautiful and is one of the angels of music

Posted 11/17/2005 at 11:31 PM

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you mean the NEW phantom of the opera right? cuz me and ben almost DIED watching the old one. holy shit. IT IS SO BAD. SO bad. Almost as bad as Nick is gay. Yeah that bad. UBER BAD to the MAXXXXXXXXXXX haha maximilian. yeah so i decided that if i end up transferring it WILL be at fairview. and for more about that you can read my xanga.
Posted 11/18/2005 at 2:46 PM by ugivepeasachance

lol, i've seen all of them, cept wallace and gromit... all are pretty good...

Posted 11/21/2005 at 12:37 AM by paque

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

coldplay is coming to town...holy shit i am ...so freaking out
i called Billy asap cuz i wasn't wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hello?
me: hi billy it's your photo editor
Posted 11/16/2005 at 11:51 PM

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yay coldplayt i love it but i'm NOT going. who is billy? weird girl. and yeah i need to know about maxx. i'm going crazy my mom and i got in a fight beFORE school! i mean holy shit! that's like five minutes out 24 hours that we talk to each other and we end up in a fight. crazy bitch.
Posted 11/17/2005 at 9:28 AM by ugivepeasachance
i still dont know what time we will start on saturday/ sunday for my great aunt's condo, u ,know cleaning and painting but i will let you know if i remember.....
Posted 11/17/2005 at 5:31 PM by ugivepeasachance
peri i love you so much...thank you so much for burning me all of the H.I.M albums and NIN's "With Teeth" on one...single DATA DISC
i am ROCKING OUT TO ONLY...FINALLY WHOOO I LOVE YOU NIN!!!!!! let's concern about fitting into the world...your world that is...cuz it dosen't really matter anymore whooo I LOVE THIS SONG!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH

Thomas joined me and played extreme table tennis/badminton in Ben's 5th period racquet sports..sakeena continues to forget her racquet at home..and i still owe a match against tristan

Tristan: I'm bringing a quiche FRIDAY!!!!!!! YA finally after a year of bugging the shit out of me for that quiche

it's funny: nanxi had no fucking clue what a baguette was lmfao ..she's like "uhhh what's a baguette?"
Posted 11/16/2005 at 10:15 PM
okay ...we have ....3 more days until Thanksgiving break..i am freaking pysched

-mandy : PLEASE TELL ME YOUR NOT GROUNDED ARGHHH ME AND BEN ARE LIKE FREAKING OUT .."I"M FREAKING OUT MAN!!"

whoooo NANORIMO GO PEOPLE GO!!!! I'm trying to write my novel w/out NANOWRIMO because i seriously need more than a month to write ..and coffee..sick i hate coffee..tea now that's a different story

EXTREME BADMINTON and PING PONG...I AM GETTING BETTER WITH MY ASIAN SKILLZ...dad said that it was in my blood cuz he "kicked everyone's ass IN lanzhou"...but has he met Forrest Gump? i am totally joking

2nd period- this spider crawled on my desk and i freaked out ...basically flew out of my chair and crashed into the red bean bags...i had no idea that something was crawling on my notebook until i realised something brown..and something fast was crawling towards me
anyways I CAN PLAY AMELIE ..ahemm anyways

Plan
1) GET MANDY TO FAIRVIEW OR BOULDER HIGH SOMEHOW (BOULDER OR FAIRVIEW WORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! though remember when i asked kara/thomas..they asnwered WITH.."YES!!" to Fairview

i hate chemistry homework..though it's a breeze...like no kidding

Weekend is a very interesting movie...and it's French...BEAT THAT

Ben-stop tugging your shirt to get in air because your sweating perfusely after racquet sports..come off it cuz i sweat but i doin't like to wave my WHITE SHIRT AROUND *coughCOUGH...okay that was a terrible exxageration

my muffin nearly frozed along my walk to the bus stop this morning..i did not want...no i refused to get out of bed this morning...hhmmm for those who have been on my bed, which include....Mandy, Ben, Liz, Lisa, Peri, and ....Blake okay it's a really COMFORTABLE BED...it's a QUEEN SIZE BED (i apologize to thsoe who don't possess such comfort :( ) okay my queen size bed...has really fluffy pillows..or just squishy (lmfao) ..and with two comforters...I AM THAT COMFORTABLE AND I REFUSE TO GET OUT OF BED..what more can I say?
ohohoo and top that when my alarm clock radio flips to 93.3..and FRANZ FERDINAND IS ON....ahh the torture/comfort of having to wake up...but nooooooooooooooooooo i don't want to !!!!!!!!!!!

Thomas likes to eat frozen cookie dough right Teresa...i'm betting that he will NOT get intestinal..diseases...sick

-NOTE: I HAVE A GRAND IDEA, WE SHOULD HAVE A REALITY TV SHOW ABOUT LIZ RUNNIGN AWAY FROM TENNESEE JUST TO GET BACK TO HER BOYFRIEND BACK IN COLORADO IN ONE>>>WEEK!!!!! sorry Keller i know i have been really harsh about your girlfriend...but ehhh ehhh it's LIZ!! ik your bit of fluff can endure running away from ...tenennsee lol

"were the panda united fan club...from ohio" -kara 4th period (lisa's from OH so we can make that excuse) also when WE FIND THE FIESTY GOAT ON OUR EUROTRIP WE ARE GOING IN THERE SINCE WE HAVE LISA ON OUR SIDE

MORE INSIDE JOKES ON THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
side note: thomas is a full geek..but he dosen't reveal it

side note #2~ Nasus is starting an asian club...or simply trying to ...so people should come when the club starts...ehheheheheh
Asian club (the one that dosen't suck) : everyone is welcome see...? it's not narrow like...Chinese club (i'm sorry it sounds so...narrow minded ..woah that sounds like half of my idiotic relatives..and 2/3 of china no offense..but it's rather true...the teenagers over there are fruitcakes...but remember i'm not reffering to every single teenager in the PRC/HK/TAIWAN)

whoo writing feels great...my novel/screenplay
and ...ohohohoo were going to create a music video that includes
-eye of the tiger theme
-the asian invasion
-me doing slow motion cat walk
-ANGST ANGST ANGST!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 11/16/2005 at 1:12 AM

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omg you are funny. angst!! ha i have so much angst. I dont know what to do ben don't hate me though so that is GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 lol i miss him so much. you can tell him that. I miss him so much. hhaha. thanks for your support i might survive thanks to you. lol. no guarantees.
Posted 11/16/2005 at 9:28 AM by ugivepeasachance
am I invited to asian club? even though its caucasian pride over here! go czechitalians! me and thomas are on the same wavelength. Frozen cookie dough is the SHIZNIT OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 11/16/2005 at 2:55 PM by ugivepeasachance
am i still on sugar probation????
Posted 11/16/2005 at 2:56 PM by ugivepeasachance

Monday, November 14, 2005

Mandy ~ We love YOU, Relax and let life pass, it will be alright trust me,
just come to Fairview or Boulder and let us take care of you beccause we all love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BEN LOVES YOU
I LOVE YOU
LISA
LIZ
PERI
WE ALL LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuck Centaurus if things are that bad
Posted 11/14/2005 at 11:41 PM

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thaaaaaaaaank you susan for your support! my mom disconnected the phones last night. we had a.... disagreement, of sorts. she was on a rampage, sowent to work and took my stereo, (mawin says hi, by the way), and then took the phone receivers off of all the phones and took them with her. So i couldn't use the phone. Except that we have an extra phone that isn't hooked up to anything in the office so i used that one and stuck it in the jack and called joe and he came over and he mellowed me out so i didn't break anything. I got very.... angry, shall we say. And I dont' kno wwhy Ben likse me i am a crazy fuck girl . I hate this. So whatever. Peace out.
Posted 11/15/2005 at 5:14 PM by ugivepeasachance

Sunday, November 13, 2005

I KNOW HOW TO PLAY COMPTINE D'UN AUTRE ÉTÉ L'APRÈS-MIDI FROM THE AMÉLIE FILM FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE THE SOUNDTRACK LIKE TERESA...WHOOO I AM SOOO PROUD OF MYSELF -BUT I CAN'T FORGET TO THANK MANDY ENOUGH FOR HELPING ME GETTING DOWN THE RIGHT HAND by playing the THE LEFT HAND OF THE SONG AT HER HOUSE...ALSO FOR PLAYING THE CD ON WALKMAN THEN..THE STEREO SO WE CAN HEAR HOW IT GOES

AHHH I AM SO HAPPY I FINALLY FIGURED IT OUT
THANK YOU..
SHEET MUSIC.COM
THE GUY IN THE BAND HALLWAY DURING 4TH PERIOD THURSDAY
AND MANDY!!1
AND YANN TIERSEN-YOUR A GENIUS!!

while i was at mandy's ..the only purpose was to organize her life again..and try to watch SNL..but then again cleaning up her room comes first..and releasing all the horrid chi that was clogged up in her room

yesterday:
1) had piano
2) then hung around pearl st w/mandy and it was pitch black..but ahh it was only 6 PM
3) went to borders wayy tooo many times
and last trip to borders we got hot beverages (i love hot chocolate hehehe)
4) shopped @ barts cd and i got A FRANZ FERDINAND & HIM PINS..& NIN FLATS!!!!!!!!! AHHHH FOR 50 CENTS TO A DOLLAR WHOOOOO!!!!

Posted 11/13/2005 at 8:10 PM

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you forgot the part where i got a bloody nose and stole a role of toilet paper from starbucks, hellO!!!!
Posted 11/14/2005 at 5:24 PM by ugivepeasachance

Friday, November 11, 2005

Hey just went bowling with a load of friends, tis was fun, though I hope everyone else will enjoy a kick ass time at Breckinridge tomorow-i wish i could ski

I don't know so.. far I am still intruiged by Maxx, he is wickedly kickass and extreme..so awesome..i just hope he dosen't think i'm too pyschotic...or am i....

it will take time I suppose like Ben said..what ben always says that nerd
nevermind most of my friends are ners but it isn't too revealing w/apparel or nasally

I think that I still..well lol i still like Maxx, he is cool
ben-you so owe me, 1) for making jump out of my chair during a game of "GO' with Thomas because my phone started vibrating on the table and it read "MAX 2 THE MAXX" calling, i got EXCITED FOR...NOTHING..then again i talked to maxx for a few minutes..i wish i could get to know him better somehow...maybe through a few loaded shots
Posted 11/11/2005 at 12:50 AM

Wednesday, November 9, 2005

Men See You As Understated
You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman.
You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men.
Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you.
You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well


You Are a Good Student of Men
You're pretty good at knowing what men are thinking
But you're not dead on 100% of the time
Let your guy off the hook sometimes... because you may be reading him all wrong!

Posted 11/9/2005 at 8:28 PM

Monday, November 7, 2005

X = I have done this
( ) Smoked a cigarette
( ) Smoked a cigar.
( ) Smoked a joint.
( ) Crashed a friend's car.
( ) Stolen a car.
(X) Been in love

(X ) Been dumped.
( ) Shoplifted
( ) Been fired.
( ) Been in a fist fight
(x) Snuck out of the house
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
( ) Been arrested
( ) Gone on a blind date.
(x) Lied to a friend.
(x) Had a crush on a teacher
(x) Been to Europe
(x) Skipped school.
( ) Seen someone die.
() Been to Canada
() Been to Mexico.
(x) Been on a plane.
( X) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
( ) Thrown up in a bar.
( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi.
( ) Been snowboarding.
( ) Met someone from the internet in person
(XX ) Been moshing at a concert.
( ) Been in an abusive relationship.
(x) Taken painkillers.
(x) Love someone or miss someone right now.
(x) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.
(x) Made a snow angel.
(x) Built a sand castle.
(x) Gone puddle jumping.
(x) Played dress up.
(x) Jumped into a pile of leaves.
(x) Gone sledding.
(x) Cheated while playing a game.
(x) Been lonely.
(x) Fallen asleep at work/school.
( ) Used a fake ID.
(x) Watched the sun set.
() Felt an earthquake.
(X ) Touched a snake.
(x) Slept beneath the stars.
(x) Been tickled.
(x) Been robbed.
(x) Been misunderstood.
() Pet a goat.
(x) Won a contest.
( ) Run a red light.
(X ) Been suspended from school.
( ) Been in a car accident.
( ) Spilled alcohol on a close friend or relative.
() Had braces
(x) Felt like an outcast.
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night.
(x) Danced in the moonlight.
(x) Hated the way you look.
(x) Loved the way you look.
(x) Witnessed a crime.
() Pole danced.
(X ) Been obsessed with post-it notes.
() Walked barefoot through the mud.
(x) Been lost.
(x) Been to the opposite side of the country.
(x) Swam in the ocean
(X ) Felt like dying.
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
( X) Played cops and robbers.
(X ) Recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers.
(x) Sung karaoke
(x) Paid for a meal with only coins.
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
(x) Made prank phone calls when you were younger.
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(x) Danced in the rain.
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus.
( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe.
() See the sun rise with someone you care about.
() Made out with a stranger.
(x) Blown bubbles.
( ) Had a bonfire on the beach.
( ) Crashed a party.
(x) Gone rollerskating.
(x) Had a wish come true.
(X ) Worn pearls.
() Jumped off a bridge.
() Ate dog/cat food
( ) Told a complete stranger you loved them.
(x) Kissed a mirror.
(x) Sang in the shower.
(X ) Owned a little black dress
(x) Had a dream that you married someone.
(x) Glued your hand to something.
( ) Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole.
( ) Kissed a fish.
(x) Worn the opposite gender's clothes.
( ) Been a cheerleader.
(x) Sat on a roof top
(x) Screamed at the top of your lungs.
(x) Done a one-handed cartwheel.
(X ) Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours.
(x) Stayed up all night.
(X ) Didn't take a shower for a week.
( ) Picked and ate an apple right off the tree.
() Climbed a tree.
( ) Had a tree house.
( ) Are scared to watch scary movies.
(X ) Believe in ghosts.
( ) Have more than 30 pairs of shoes.
(X ) Worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say.
( ) Gone streaking.
(X ) Played chicken.
(X ) Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on.
(x) Been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger.
(X ) Broken a bone.
(x) Been easily amused.
( ) Caught a fish then ate it.
(x) Caught a butterfly.
(x) Laughed so hard you cried.
(x) Cried so hard you laughed.
(X ) Mooned/flashed someone
(x) Had someone moon/flash you.
(X ) Cheated on a test
(x) Forgotten someone's name.
( ) French braided someone's hair.
( ) Grown a beard
Posted 11/7/2005 at 10:52 PM

1 Comments
OMG U had a crush ona TEACHER WHO ?!!!!!!!!!!!! ps that is one long survey. one, loooooooooooooong dealy-o.
Posted 11/9/2005 at 10:40 AM by ugivepeasachance
HOLY SHIT HOW IS MY MSN HOROSCOPE ALWAYS ACCURATE? ????? THIS IS SCARING ME TO DEATH!!!!!


Gemini
May 20 - June 20
Your heart is longing for a romantic encounter tonight, dear Gemini, and the man in your life is more than willing. Nonetheless, circumstances beyond your control could interfere with your plans, and you might not be able to make contact tonight. This could bring frustration, dissatisfaction, and maybe even a little friction between you. Don't panic, though. It will pass, probably by tomorrow.

ROMANTIC ENCOUNTER..=...maxx holy shit
Posted 11/7/2005 at 8:48 PM

Sunday, November 6, 2005

I am so sick of my grandparents...no no just my grandma at the moment because right now another argument has taken place right outside my room and i wish for peace
why can't my grandma stop complaining, she has got to have a sense of closure with my relatives back home because they don't need help geez. I know that my cousin is in college, my uncles are jobless but that is not her concern. What her concern is right now is just be happy for once. I just wish for her happiness and i try so hard to make her happy, but it seems that I can never make her smile and I just make her dissapointed

My grandma....pretty much is ruining my family or that is what my dad has been saying. Or that is what i have been hearing around the house
pretty much my dad has been giving the old folks the silent treatment and that takes some guts to simply ignore them when there up 24/7 .
I'm a bit fed up, though I shouldn't complain because I must be humble and just put up with it because it is not worth complaining about their menial problems
damn i need headphones she's getting loud...she's(grandma) is probably gonna be all emotional once more

Expressing my frustration out on a computer is better than yelling at my mom like last time...in September. I feel better after typing out my bitching...relieves my soul for a bit
I should play piano-that always calms my spirits whenever I practice Claire du Lune. Though trying to polish this piece has not been quite successful as I hoped, I have no idea how much emotion is in this song because my piano is ....like tone deaf. And the pedal just kills it...it's a century old piano spare me please. I'm gonna have to steal a grand piano near by (scouts the area)
at least Mrs.Hata says I'm doing so great with this piece and I love Claire Du Lune..i feel at peace whenever I play the poco mosso section, i wonder what Maxx plays..i need to know and my Dad says i should because he was my date for homeocming and YES I LIKE HIM so much...i mean he has 9 years of piano up his sleeve...mehhh so do I crazyniess

Posted 11/6/2005 at 2:12 PM

2 Comments

I know how you feel about your overbearing relatives. I feel the same way, in fact, I am refusing to talk with my mom now, since she took away the last of what I can do to find solace from the world.

And my dad just won't help, he just won't take action, can't take action, because every single one of us in my family, we are under Nazi rule, literally.

Posted 11/7/2005 at 7:7 AM by blackhawk789
kyoko! thatsintense that sucks. I think you should just let things with maxx happen as they might and relax about it. I dont know how i can helpbut if i can find a way I will!!!!
Posted 11/9/2005 at 10:39 AM by ugivepeasachance

Friday, November 4, 2005

Slum near summit expects empty promises

‘If you’re born poor here, you’ll probably die poor here’

IMAGE: SLUM RESIDENTS
Leonardo Gonzalez, 21, joined by his son Julio, 4, works on his house in a slum near Friday's summit of American leaders in Mar del Plata, Argentina.
Marcelo Hernandez / AP




“If you’re born poor here, you’ll probably die poor here,” said Segundo Aguirre, a 52-year-old construction worker who helped build some of the $150,000 brick houses yards from his one-room concrete block home. “We’re always hoping for something better, but the promises are always hollow, and nothing happens.”

Most people here make less than the Argentine minimum wage equivalent to $150 per month. The work is irregular — mostly low-paying summer jobs selling trinkets, cleaning homes or doing yard work for rich and middle-class Argentines at this beach resort about 250 miles from the capital, Buenos Aires.

Economics of income
Their story plays out across Latin America and the Caribbean, where per capita income averages $3,280, World Bank statistics show. That’s compared to $24,470 in Canada and $37,870 in the United States.

President Bush is poised to unveil a job proposal for the region at the summit, but analysts doubt it will have much effect.

“The main problem is that Washington is in denial about the economic failure,” said Mark Weisbrot, who specializes in Latin American economics for the Center for Economic and Policy Research in Washington, D.C. “More Latin American leaders are aware of it, but it does not seem to be discussed. What is needed at a bare minimum is some discussion about what has gone wrong.”

Bush is also expected to push his long-term solution for the region, a 34-nation Free Trade Area of the Americas that he says will generate wealth and create jobs.

But some blue-collar Argentines say they are weary of hearing about the long-stalled proposal. Thousands of anti-Bush protesters from 25 nations in the hemisphere have descended on the city of 700,000 to bitterly oppose it and many wanted Bush to simply stay away.

“We’re mad that Argentina even opened the door for his visit,” said Wayma Maman, a 50-year-old Indian who traveled three days on a bus to participate in protests against Bush. “For us, he’s the devil and he should stay away with his proposals.”

Sick of the summit
A few blocks away, Donato Gonzalez was mixing concrete with his sons and beginning work on an addition to his one-room house in the shadow of a soccer stadium. He buys a sack of concrete whenever he has enough spare money from his job eking out an existence reupholstering furniture.

But Gonzalez, 49, said he only had the time to work on the house Friday. His usual clients, middle-class Mar del Plata residents, left the city for Buenos Aires because summit security has closed down much of the city.



Updated: 9:03 a.m. ET Nov. 4, 2005

MAR DEL PLATA, Argentina - Across the street from luxury summer retreats for wealthy Argentines, children run through smelly alleys of a slum and play soccer in dusty lots littered with trash and rubble.

Nearly 1,000 people live in this “villa miseria,” Argentine Spanish for a shantytown, but few are paying attention to this weekend’s Summit of the Americas at an elegant oceanfront hotel a mile away.

The theme of the summit of 34 nations is jobs, but slum dwellers are not counting on those leaders to lift them from their misery. They say they have heard the promises for decades, but little has changed.

Gonzalez immigrated from Uruguay four years ago, thinking there would be plenty of work in Mar del Plata because of its thriving tourism. But he is not surprised life did not improve.

“The conditions are the same as they were in Uruguay,” Gonzalez said. “But remember, this is South America.”

So will the summit make a difference?

“I’m just sick of hearing about it,” he said.

© 2005 The Associated Press. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.
Posted 11/4/2005 at 10:24 PM
Oh the things to do in the coming weeks, which I have etched down in my planner as THANKSGIVING BREAK

THAT'S RIGHT ONLY TWO MORE WEEKS UNTIL WE CAN GET A DAMN BREAK OFF OF SCHOOL YES!!!! I AM EXHUASTED AND WHIT K- SHUT UP YOU LOUD FAT PIG (you are .... u know)
Anyways there are many things do in the mean time (or in the course of a glorious week off)

1)The Autumn Film Festival 2005 @ Liz's house (most likely at Liz's
2) Make a slideshow of your photos you photowhore
3)Buy Kung Fu Hustle Soundtrack/DVD
4)Make the Family Tree (Bring out the sharpies plz)
5)GO SKING (well i hope i don't run into a tree )
6)Make mixes
7) Steal more CD-R's from the J-lab
8)MAKE CRAZY BOOK
-8.5) BUY CRAZY BOOK STUFF FROM MICHAELS
-8.6) BUY MORE CRAFT STUFF FROM MICHAELS
9) T-SHIRT MAKING DAY @ ...somebody's house
10)Make indie film
11)Make the inside joke page
12)Another stupid scrap book that will kick ass
13)Start underground asian club


Top priorities
1) Fly Freshmen on kites senior year
2) Attack all stupid freshmen (thomas and I will take care of it)
3)Eurotrip 2007 w/everyone
4) China trip 2008 w/everyone
5)Kill the iPods
Posted 11/4/2005 at 12:12 AM

Thursday, November 3, 2005

HELL YEAH I have a only 2 C's in two classes whoooo wahoo

okay so my grades for 1st quarter

Chem - C (69%) hahha
Am Lit- A (96%)
Alg 2 - B
Photo 2- A (100)
Lunch- A+ hell yes
Yearbook- A
AP US HISTORY- C!!
French - A
Posted 11/3/2005 at 9:41 PM

Tuesday, November 1, 2005

GASP WHAT THE HELL GUYS????? WHEN WHITNEY OPENED THE PHOTO IN THE J-LAB I WAS REALLY EXCITED TO SEE IT, BUT THEN WHEN THE PHOTO OPENED I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK??!!!!!!!! WHAT WERE YOU TWO DOING???




WOAH I WAS LIKE WOAH WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?? AND I HAD NO IDEA WHAT YOU TWO WERE DOING UP THERE HONESTLY... hehehheheh so you guys held that kiss for a minute? wow you two 'sighs'...wait till everyone sees YOU GUYS ONLINE
[ that was the Fairview homecoming...about two weeks ago] [Scandalous/Amusing]
Posted 11/1/2005 at 3:3 PM

Tuesday November 1, 2005
GOOD GOD I JUST ATE A WHOLE SNICKERS ALMOND BAR...SHITAKE MUSHROOMS!!!
Posted 11/1/2005 at 12:42 AM

Tuesday November 1, 2005
DID FORGET TO MENTION THAT DURING BOTH HOMECOMINGS WE STARTED A RIGHTEOUS CONGA LINE...and can can formation ...which was like 20 people...i think were on crack here mon

ben: KITTYKITTYKITTY KITTY KITTY KITTY KITTY KITTY KITTY KITTY KITTY KITTY MUAHAHHAHA
Posted 11/1/2005 at 12:21 AM
HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE BODY I just went trick-o treating te ehehheheheheheh and i haven't done that in 5 years
this year i was the Asian emo kid...or you could say that i was the pyscho girl from the Ring, the basket case ...w/e you judge
A.J was Bob Ross..or so i thought..nm he was just some guy from the 70's with a big fro..very hot i must say
and then Adam Smith had a costume that read "Eve went for more than the apples" and then Marshall showed his Norwegian pride by showing up as a Viking
Reed was a toilet-enough said

I WAS EMO and I wore a black skirt over dark jeans, then had a blue longsleeve shirt with my communist t-shirt over it..with to top it off...i stole my Dad's converse he wonders where his shoes went i bet

oh ohohoho BEN WAS ZORRO AND HE KISSED ME AND WOW
the reason why:::
well let's see he needed some munchie like food for his 3rd period Spanish class, so he asked around to see if anyone could get him something 2nd period since he had to take the APUSH multiple choice test arghhh..so I said that I could try and get stuff for him (at the time I was thinking that someone must have a car 2nd period)
To my surprise..there was no car but there was me running around looking emo after 1st period when we discovered that a pumpkin can have a hangover and splurt out foam (chemistry rocks my socks) ...there was a demo in chem so reg chem went to the IB chem class and I WAS REUNITED W/ALL MY IBCHEMER BUDDIES it was joyous..and my seat was vacant awww

me: HI GUYS
lisi: IT'S SUSAN
me: HI LISI (in a hehe yogi bear voice)
LISI WAS EMO TOO!!! THOMAS WAS ANTI-POPE BADASS THE FIRST W00t

anyways off subject
i go into Am/lit looking all emo...no one could guess who i was until i told them 'the bad of shit" OHH breakfeast club hehhehe that's right you dumbassses..then i realised that luckily we have a sub and whoo we were watching Glory...hmm so i told him "may i use the restroom?" and then went down into the 300 hallway ...found Ben in drafting and asked him

me: what is it that u need again?
ben: crackers and cookies
me: mk
ben: can you get them?
me: probably...
Posted 11/1/2005 at 12:7 AM