Tuesday March 30, 2004

Wow the last day of my spring break and wow I think I ruined it. No champagne to celebrate this one oh no. . My eyes are itchy, i fucking sneeze till my brains fall out of my ears , geez god did you really have to curse me? huh? well I don't believe in you anyways.

I don't know what to think, what to say to anyone because I fear that I will seriously tick someone off and they go ballistic just because of a phrase that my mouth spilled out.

Well maybe I should grab a pistol..shove it in my fucking mouth, pull the trigger and everyone in this world will be in perfect harmony wahoo!!!

Damn there goes my PMS again oops I did it again!! so fucking what.

HAVE A FUCKING GREAT SPRING BREAK EVERYONE WHO JUST STARTED THEIR FUCKING SPRING BREAK WAHOO!!! GO DOWN TO MEXICO!! and come back with a miserable sun burn HA! LOSERS!

signed,

pyscho

Posted 3/30/2004 at 10:58 PM

Monday March 29, 2004

Ladies and Gentlemen do you know what's really depressing.

I started my Xanga membership on February 22nd,2004. I didn't realize that I actually signed up that day until I realized tonight. That date..is a very depressing date. I mean the year before Feb 22,2003..was the day I went on a group date with my friends Amy, David (Amy's bf)and Steven, we went to see Chicago at the Flatirons AMC and we spend most of the night hanging out in Flatirons.

That night was one of the best times of my life (because I never hanged out w/any of my friends that long before) Also that night I fell for him..he held my hand that night..i was touched. I had considered that one of the best times of my life until January 10th,2004 when the bastard dumped me. Yeah i was hoping to have it as a sweet memory of my life,but no.

It reminds me of deception and betrayal. I found out after being with him almost a year that it was nothing. I was used. I blame myself sometimes.and.. I found out..that wow he's awkwardly gay..I cried because why couldn't he tell me..geez, i mean I'm alright with it though nm. According to my sources he wanted to get me so angry that I could dump him...instead of him dumping me..which is rather pathetic. as I think about it.I mean we could have just talked about it logically and I wouldn't have been crying all night after his phone call and I wouldn't be ignoring one another,which is happening now.

I was in love with him..I just fell in love that night, I guess cupid did struck me with thy arrow of love. I was drowned in love..though confused at the same time. 'sigh' well now everyone has told me to get over it.I couldn't at first..I just couldn't move on..and everyone was yelling at my face to get over it..they just didn't understand what the fuck was going on. Yeah *coughcoughB.Scougocugh*

Now..I've put that memory in the corner of my heart and leaving it there and trying to move on....though he is in my P.E class and then followed by World Geography back to back..og this really sucks.he drives me crazy now..he wears a fucking French artist hat to P.E i mean WTF? It's not portfolio art class geez.By the way Steven you SUCK AT ART!! No seriously YOUR IN FUCKING DENIAL YOUR NOT GOING TO GET INTO ART SCHOOL WITH YOUR POTENTIAL!!

Evan Kruegal yeah white boy (inside joke)..had to remind me of him during weight room,he thought it was funny. Also he is my friend but I just didn't want to remember. God I hate Steven now..I threw everything he gave me in the trash can..it's just too painful to remember, my heart got raped. the scar is still there...may never heal.

Posted 3/29/2004 at 1:14 AM

Monday March 29, 2004

Hey it's Sunday night and I haven't really done any homework..well I'll just do it now wahoo. Call me tomorow morning to see if I'm still up lol. I think I had too much cinnamon toast crunch and by the way that cereal tastes really fucking weird. God I went really hyper today...and it was fucking gloomy in the afternoon, then ppoof it was all clear and sunny. I was just sitting in my room just thinking what the fuck just happened just now? lmao. And Kazaa is back on track for moi..wahoo! I got 'yeah whatever' now I feel very happy I can listen to that song now yes!!!

Susan

Posted 3/29/2004 at 12:25 AM

Wednesday March 24, 2004

IT'S SPRING BREAK!! WAHOOOOO!!!!! Time to relax and do nothing, well I have to do some homework..damn it. I wish I could drive down to Cherry Creek and spend some time with Scott, though noOOooo my mom won't let me. Bitch. She dragged me shopping, which was soooo exciting. NOT! I think most people are out of town thank god *coughcoughprepscoughcough.* now I have Boulder all to my ownself muhhahhahah, okay I'm only joking.

I have more homework to finish before I freak out on Sunday Night ahhhhh!

SIGN MY DAMN GUESTBOOK! LOL

Susan

Posted 3/24/2004 at 7:47 PM

Thursday March 11, 2004

I'm doing my homework right now, but just saying someone please sign my guestbook, I would really like to know how I'm doing with this Xanga. Scott I know you wrote something rather sweet and it didn't show up,which makes me sad .

Well anyways to the rest of society take some time and write something into my guestbook, rambles well not disturbing ones that I'll freak out lol jk.

Susan

Posted 3/11/2004 at 9:45 PM

Captures your mind and heartwarming, Mar 11 2004

When my 8th grade Language Arts teacher did these book reccomondations every month, one of those times she reccomended scribbler of dreams.I read a few pages and then abandoned the book for a year. Well now this year I approached high school, during my off periods I wander off into the FHS library~my sanctuary. I looked through the new book section and found scribbler of dreams again. Sitting in a comfy chair my mind sank into this book. This book allowed me to enter the world of Kaitlin who has this burden of her father being a murderer, which is really depressing. Going to a new high school in your senior year is challenging..really difficult since it's the last year. Reading about the love that Bram and Kaitlin shared I thought was very touching, it's not the hots or puppy love..it's true love. reading this book I acutally cried because a love Kaitlin/Bram could have maybe threatened by her past and the passion they both have is simply beautiful.'life is beautiful'. This book I could relate a bit though my relationship wasn't that amazing and sweet sadly. Love can be bitter and yet sweet like an orange.

Posted 3/29/2008 at 9:19 PM

uesday March 2, 2004

Hey I haven't updated my Xanga in over a few days and let's just say a few people have been telling me that it hasn't been updated, which is good, Keep on reminding me.

Well anyways life changes so quickly, in a second, minute. Like in the Titanic movie-okay why the hell am I'm refering to Titanic again. The movie is alright..I'd give it a C+, they had to take 11 Academy Awards in 1998. Oh yeah did anyone watch the Oscars on Sunday night? THE RETURN OF THE KING SWEPT 11 OSCARS. JUST LIKE TITANIC og! ALRIGHT THE MOVIE WAS REALLY GOOD BUT IT DIDN'T REALLY DESERVE 11,11! 11 OSCARS! I thought Pirates of the Carribbean, Lost in Translation and Cold Mountain should have deserved a few credits in film adaptation, makeup. Oh and the Annie Lennox song 'into the west' it wasn't that great. THE BELLEVIEW RENDEZVOUS KICKED ASS!!!

People go rent/see Lost in Translation,Cold Mountain, Mystic River, Whale Rider. ELIJAH WOOD FANS~GET OVER HIM!!! GOD FRODO BAGGINS IS NOT VERY HOT WHEN HE'S ALL COVERED WITH DIRT,and looked like he hasn't taken a shower in months. I'll have to say Legolas, and Aragorn are the guys in LOTR that are on fire lmao. Hobbits looked really awkward at the Oscars when they have regular short hair. ICKK.

I'll write another one ASAP when I finish with my mythology project.

POSEIDON RULES THE DOMINION!!!!

Love blooms

like lilacs in the spring

fresh, small

releasing it's beauty into the air

perfuming my senses

sailing into my hair

seize the day

Posted 3/2/2004 at 11:2 PM