1) I'm not mad at Ben, i'm just want to whack him with his "Peace and Tranquility" cuz no offense but that's just like a rip off from Daoism dude and I'm not believing this stuff, let go? well i have been trying for the past three years, and guess what: I DIDN'T BUILD A FUCKING BOAT AT ALL BEAT THAT
2) I'm not mad @ anyone, i'm mad at myself
i don't like what I have been doing for the past ...three years of high school and it's ending now
3) what's ending? Giving up on guys, cause they are meaningless
what else is ending: i'm basically becoming a nun w/e dosen't matter,
4) i'm burning all my shit that remind me of everything that I can't stand, possibly the negatives of photos but Mandy persuaded me to do otherwise
I just don't like what I have been seeing in the mirror: this girl who has let her hair down cuz ...of what..., this girl who cried over some asshole in her bed after she read sisterhood of the traveling pants...this person who put on lavendar body splash going bowling cuz she'll see this person that she thought she liked but wait: she never liked anyone
she's just been lying to herself and she can't stand it,
why did you buy the $8 bottle of lavendar crap from bath & body? i don't know at all, i thought that it would smell good and make me feel happy...uhh wrong
i'm not even going to try, trying sucks what does it do, it makes me realise that I'm a total idiot and i shouldn't try anymore, so fuck it , and i don't want this idea to come towards me, i'm not a distress signal so don't come near me, i don't want you ..i don't need this emotion of love to stalk me cuz i hate being stalked
Posted 11/29/2005 at 12:38 AM
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