Saturday, December 31, 2005

whooo!!!!! happy new year everyone!!!!! let's party our heads off tonight yeah!!!!!
...just got to sneak out with Mandy..hopefully my dad will back us up.;..grrrr!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! let's make 2006 KICK SOME ASS!!!!!
Posted 12/31/2005 at 9:4 PM

Thursday, December 29, 2005

people change
and Susan continues to remain stubborn
I am not sure as to where I pertain this certain ...negative quality

So I would like to analyze this quote from Ben once again, though in a better fashion this time (hopefully....shut up)

Ambassador3150: did you hear
Ambassador3150: marian got a date
Ambassador3150: thers hope for yuo yet
Ambassador3150: jk
Ambassador3150: jk
Ambassador3150: youl find sombody too

Alright here it goes: Ben, I do not find myself quite fond of your advice concerning my non-existent love life. The reason probably pertains to the fact that you are vexing me with these comments that are blinded by this illusion of love..which in fact has blinded your bloody face for the past several months. "I'll find somebody"- would you just take that comment and shove it up your cranium? Please just leave me alone, I don't care if I'm alone on Christmas and when others are sucking up and hitting it close near a blazing fire....pshhh
So yes I'm single...still:wow can you honestly believe that? Well I guess i can because ..this is mE!! WHOOOO
don't feel sorry for me just because I couldn't dance with anyone during that stupid homecoming dance, or feel someone's hand in my own, i hate being pitied it makes me feel like a zoo exhibit.


Fine I admit: I DO FEEL LONELY AT TIMES, even when I'm surrounded by everyone..no wait ..when I'm surrounded by loads of couples ..that is when I start to nearly gag myself to death and feel a chill on my shoulders and then in my head I hear a : hahahah loser, that's probably one of the bloody reasons why that I am not going to attend this New Year's Party, because I'll just feel like a singled out and oh when it's midnight..i won't be able to kiss anyone AHHH DISASTER IN MY LIFE GAHHHHH
Saturday will probably consist of ...sleeping through the midnight crap, omg a new year..big deal and then it's over ..and we have to adjust our lives to 2006...holy shit
and then i'll hear about all the drunken bastards who decided to simply attempt to even drive on the road back to their destinations....losers

I'm a hopeless person, so Ben..just shove it. I am really annoyed the fact that you continue to reassure me about everything when you know they are for the worst.
If your so great then find someone for me to prove that I actually exist
but then ..wait ..I don't want somoene..just buy me a baby panda and I will be content.

"i'll find somebody" ...my ass, I've already tried and..here's the results: NOTHING
EVERY TIME THAT I ...bravely ask the question I get turned down, why did i even think that I would actually have a chance with anyone...i don't and probably not any time soon or even in the future
I've realised that I continue to mortify myself when I'm confident that ..life can work..but no so screw this. That's why I'm not confident, that is also why you should avoid all the confidence boosting towards me because it isn't helpful
it just makes this idiotic illusion for me that ...life can work for me when it dosen't
I REALLY APPRECIATE the fact that you guided me towards regret when I asked Marshall out...yea thanks

"I'm so sorry" - yea fine, YOUR SORRY THAT'S FINE I DON'T CARE, because that's what I get every single time when I feel like there's a chance, when in fact: there IS NEVER A CHANCE FOR ME

LOOK AT ME

A LOSER
NOTHING
JUST A GIRL WHO RECIEVES LOADS OF "I'm SORRIES" WHEN SHE ACTUALLY TRIES AND GETS SHUT DOWN EVERY SINGLE TIME
I'm A WRECK, no wonder people have no appeal towards me
from this wreck..i'm so appalling
the most ugliest person
just...so hideous...and fat
heads don't turn, they cower in fear



(i also hung out with my little brother today, we played soccer, ate tuna with wheat thins, watched detroit rock city, enjoyed some strawberries and also caught millionare/jepoardy)

Posted 12/29/2005 at 1:43 AM

1 Comments
Chill out girl. You can do three things. Try harder, try more, or don't try. Trying harder is working at setting things up so that people notice you (popularity, dressing up, etc.) Trying more doesn't need to be explained. Statistically, if you ask 10 random people on the street out on a date, 1 in 10 will say yes. Since I'm lazy, I choose the last one. Wait for them to go to you!
Posted 12/29/2005 at 3:8 AM by Thinktank58

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
jagged clay pot gave me a doozy on the right leg

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
posters, photos, calendars, charts, painting

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
petit, black, silver and sexy

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
EVERYTHING BUT modern country, rap, emo punk, poser pop, asian pop

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
11 am

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Get SAT's/ACT'S over with, and find a job

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
8th period world history w/Navarre, my wallet, and 1st period world literature w/reali

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
I can't be attached to everything

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Lilacs, fresh rain, my hair after a shower and calligraphy ink

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
mosh pits have scared that fear

11. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK?
NOOO

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Ted

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
..i don't put on that stuff

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
shaggy, cut..depends on the person

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
no where

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
they both suck

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
SUPREME-why ? it has loads of options on one pizza

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Hmm pizza appears to be an excellent choice right now

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
Mothers who are moody, and men

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
Mandarin, french..and English, oo a bit of everything

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX):
err....a gift card to Barnes & noble

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
Why do you care and anyways: men suck

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Please let's not get ourselves involved with this question

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
adidas, and old navy (cheap and quite conformtable)

25. WHAT`S YOUR DREAM CAR?
aston martin

27. WHAT IS ONE OF YOUR DREAMS?
To go to College, become a photojournalist..and have a nice house with a darkroom

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
In person..and a posible hug?

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
42

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Neither, and i am not a lesbian

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
Mandy, Lisa, Ben-well see both Lisa and Ben are apart of the vast Cingular network..thus equals to calling for free tee hee

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Myself

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US
What do you think, try and guess

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Guys with beautiful hair, shoulders and eyes

36. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE?
Colorado

37. FIRST JOB?
Bus girl

38. EVER PRANK CALL?
Hehehe you bet

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
trying to compelet a vat of history

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Get my left knee grafter cuz there's a 16 year old mark

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I am quite of typing

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My penmanship, acid piano, being different, my dilligence (hahah funny), and my hair...if anyone keeps fixating about the "beautiful" hair atop of my bloody head i will threaten to take a pair of shears and begin snipping everything stand!!!

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
I would not abuse that privelage, it's called maturity for some of you who are not quite familiar with the concept

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Some peace, a new lense..and the option of a digital slr (i like film don't worry)

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
None, they wouldn't find me affectionate

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Hehehe no

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
no. how will telling your wish to a big ball of gas billions of lightyears away do anything for you?

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
How about my entire hand?

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
Christmas Night

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
YES I DO, PEOPLE are in a fever with it

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
None

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
cracking my knuckles, and the occaisional cutting my finger nails too short

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
THE FACT that i purchased several N*sync albums back in the day?

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
no , never trust an angry angsty asian

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
No

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Would you want breakouts all over your face? hehhe i don't think so

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
by releasing my frustation through the art of screaming

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
Mandy and Peri's ..oh and my Aunt's house

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
I am that gulliable

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
the kitchen pots and pans

61. WHAT ARE THE FIRST THREE NUMBERS IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Are you trying to target my friends?

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
You wish

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
fuck yes and do i push around: most definitley

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Compassion, intelligence, logic, humor, and a good heart

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Nasus, Pépé Le Wang, Wang, Photowhore, the Asian, the Asian invasion, AAA (Awesome Asian Agent) or (Angry Angsty Asian), Kyoko,

67. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
I find myself not in the position of searching for a possible mate at the moment

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Sure..why not

69. WHO IS YOUR CRUSH?
No one, and I'm positive that you are actually concerned with my relations regarding love

70. WHAT`S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
There are a plethora of options in the United States of Obesity I mean...I like strawberry/green tea myself

71. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU WENT ON A DATE?
That is a wonderful question, have you asked yourself if you were so desperate?
I have to confess that I've never experienced this ritual that the West speaks of as "dating"

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
The shades of a sunset

73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
I haven't looked in the back of my mouth in a while

74. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
Who: I am in misery with nothing
What: I miss my summer nights

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Possibly

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
No Bravery-James Blunt

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
A filling burrito and porridge

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Mandy actually

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Their hair

80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG:
This sentence does not provide enough sense

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE:
AAA=Actual Annoying Asians

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
Strawberry Daquiri

83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN:
The Snake

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
Racquet sports, anything involved with a soft sphere, yes bowling does suck

85. HAIR COLOR?
Black with different shades of brown and red

86. EYE COLOR?
ebony/almond black

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
No therefore i am not an intelligent Asian

88. SIBLINGS?
What siblings...

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
May-June

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
I hate sushi as much as I hate you
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
...Jepoardy

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Last day of school

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Apparenty so

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Both

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
I can have both right?

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Well see that depends on the person

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
People who refuse to do their homework during a glorious fun winter break

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Ben Collins

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
PRIDE AND PREJUDICE

100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?.
I do not believe that anyone has ever been fond of an adbomniation such as myself ..well have you ever took the chance to get a look at me?
Posted 12/28/2005 at 8:39 PM
i don't care blahblah blah
i am really hungry for some buddha!!!

here's some photos: WOAHPAH!!!

.HEY HEY GET OFF MY BED!!!!
.why does ben always do those melancholy puppy eyes @ me..he did that to me a few days ago too..possibly @ school...aww so cute..YOU TWO, 2nd level NORLIN LIBRARY PRONTO!!! I MEAN IT!
i was suppose to hang out w/peri and lisa on pearl today..but noo I had to do some homework BLAHHH
Posted 12/28/2005 at 1:6 AM

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

i hate to explain to everyone that I am filled with arrogrance and drama, but i have to say: this was one of the most bizzare and drama stricken holidays i've had since Chinese New Year of ...03 when the power went out. no nothing happened, it was just weird and creepy cuz we were trying to party and ...eat and...have fun...but colorado just likes to have menstral cycles with the the climate

THIS IS COLORADO:
-in the morning we might have depressing stricken gray clouds, but then all of a sudden several hours..fucking sunshine appears out of nowhere

-then it gets freezing and we have snow the next fucking day
then the sun decides to apologize to us and make it melt...then the distrcit cancels the proposed snow day, which blows because we have to do more lame homework and learn more algebra than i should ( i don't even need math if i'm gonna go into lingusitics..fuck this)

anyways....
-i love the 2005 holiday season...hehehe why is that?
hmmm well there's CHRISTMAS DAY..WHICH I LOOKED FORWARD TOO
but here's the results of my day

- mom going to the ER (DUDE I TOLD YOU NOT TO OVERINDULGE YOURSELF OVER WHATEVER YOU FUCKING ATE @ THE THE ASIAN PARTY...DID YOU DRINK?? BUT I DRANK MORE THAN YOU YOU WHORE!!)

- Getting rejected...isn't that cute (there you go everyone: I AM A FAILURE, THERE IS NO HOPE FOR SUSAN WHEN IT CCOMES TO THIS EMOTION ...KNOWN AS LOVE...WELL GUESS WHAT: YOU KNOW IT'S ALL IN YOUR FUCKING HEAD!!!!!!!!!!) I AM NOTHING...NO WONDER GUYS DON'T WANT TO ...DATE ME,..i am not appealing..i've always realised that..god i have been such a fool, why do i even think that i have a chance anymore because i don't.
Why remain determined when hey i'll be getting the same response of "your nice, but no and I'm so sorry, or sorry, or i'm really sorry"


"There's still hope for you Susan" -Ben Collins,
uh nooo ben there is no hope, shut up and stop trying to make me feel better you loser..you logical thinker..STOP MAKING ME FEEL BETTER BECAUSE I AM NOT YOUR FUCKING GIRL IN THE FIRST PLACE GAHHHHHHHHHH, just becaus you have your own bit of fluff dosen't mean your thinking can prove useful since it's all blind..but not in your head

-
Your grandparents talking about how much your grand kids are hopeless 'behind your back' because they don't tell you ANYTHING apparently about your mom's condition in the hospital..by the way: SHE WAS FINE, DAD TOLD PETER AND HE TOLD YOU, HE EVEN REASSURED YOU WHEN YOU KEPT BEING STUBBORN ABOUT THE REPETIVENE QUESTION "IS YOUR MOM ALRIGHT????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
..but hey I'm NOT DEAF YOU FUCKING BITCH,I CAN WIPE A TABLE AND REALISE THAT YOU MADE A CESS POOL OF A MESS DURING BREAKFEAST..I CAN WASH THE FUCKING DISHES WITHOUT YOU CUZ I AM NOT A FUCKING 2 YEAR OLD
I HATE YOU-YOU HAVE SUCH A COLD HEART YOU SICK GRANDMA I HATE YOU , I NEVER FELT ANY LOVE FROM YOU EVER!!!!!!!!!!! I NEVER GOT A HUG WHEN I WAS CRYING ABOUT MY DEAD GRANDMA, I NEVER GOT ANY FUCKING COMFORT FROM YOU ....WHERE IS THE LOVE?? THERE ISN'T AND I HATE YOU!!!!!!!

- when your dad decides to browse around grand ebony pianos as something that we could do tomorow (the 27th of December) GREAT I DON'T WANT A PIANO, HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES DO I HAVE TO REMIND YOU THAT I HAVE NO DESIRE OF A FUCKING EBONY..WHATEVER 6 FT GRAND PIANO ..OKAY I AM SICK OF THIS CONVERSATION, WHEN WILL YOU REALISE THAT I AM IN NO DESIRE FOR A DAMN PIANO BECAUSE I DONT NEED ONE AND YOUR WASTING YOUR TIME FIXATING OVER THIS IDEA THAT WE SHOULD HAVE ONE, BECAUSE HELLO??? WE DON'T NEED ONE, SAVE THAT MONEY FOR SOMETHING USEFUL, OWNING A GRAND PIANO IS LIKE OWNIGN A FUCKING BIG DOG, I HAVE TO MAINTAIN IT, TUNE IT, DUST IT, AND FEED IT WITH MUSIC OR ELSE IT WILL DIE

-today it's boxing day!!
got a ride to Peri's thanks LISA!!
decided to get pizza
went to pizza hut
planned out a four for all
waited
talked about europe
got pizza
ate pizza and watched dazed & confused
mandy called, i thought it was my mother
started cracking up when the movie de-paused and it reverted back to American television and it was Nick
-ate kickass fudge cookies
-hung out until 6 pm..well until it got dark
it was pretty ...the sky i mean
Posted 12/27/2005 at 12:44 AM

Sunday, December 25, 2005

so it is Christmas Eve and i just finished wrapping many last minute christmas presents for my family members: that consists of my dad, peter and mom....screw the grandparents no offense because they don't care what I give them ....

This has been quite unorthodox for me ..for this christmas eve 2005 I went to see Memoirs of a Geisha with more people than expected
last night the following people agreed'd to show up

- Mandy (planned it)
me (cuz i want to go)
lisa (cuz lisa wants to see it)
peri (cuz peri wants to see it too)
ben (cuz ..he's with Mandy...you know)

Today @ the cinema by Whole Foods and Barnes & Noble (peri thought it was Borders...yea that's on Pearl Street my friend)
-Me
-Lisa
-Peri
-Thomas...what the
-Blake ...i thought you couldn't come
-ben
-mandy

BEFORE HEADING TO THE CINEMA I WAS WITH LISA...and we risked our lives and wandered into the Westiminister Mall...it wouldn't be scary if all the gangsta asians and...hispanics stopped looking at us..oh and the scary wiggers and posers....ughh i hate metro colorado..scares the bejesus out of me ....i thank god that my parents decided to not let me go to Angevine ...or centaurus..or even move to Denver...
what would have happen to Susan...you wouldn't see the susan that would see before you...ughhhh no that would be horrible> I always thought that I would turn into some punk-ass druggie that didn't care about anyone
thanks Lisa for giving me a ride and ...you FOUND MY HOUSE GOOD JOB ..CHOCOLATE FOR YOU!!!
it was fun listening to the new FRANZ FERDINAND ALBUM in your dad's acura....i can't believe ted might get an ACURA...WE BOTH LOVE HIM gahhh were such dorks
...and thanks Ben: for calling me when i was @ Spencer's w/lisa and warned us about the crappy parking around the cinema...lucky for us there was A PARKING SPOT FOR US....GOD GAVE US THAT PARKING SPOT!!!! WE ARE SO LUCKY THAT LISA CAN PARK WELL....especially when we were at the Flatirons blockbuster and surrounded by surburbian vans....gahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *screams in agony
i hate vans ...grrr suburban mothers 'sighs'
there was this acura that was riding our acura's ass....i am scared...and that sounded SOOOO WRONG
lisa you are not a crazy driver at all I love you!!!


-20 minutes before the movie--
driving our way on South Boulder and talking about the following
-system of a down
- max holloway
-fuck buddies
- TED TED TED
- Ted being someone's fuck buddy....why why you could have it so much better!!
- forks, spoons and chopsticks
-i'm asian!!!
- suburban mothers
- getting trashed on thursday night and telling ted how much i loved him ...apparently
so i'm a nice drunk (that's what me and Peri agreed on Friday night when i called her)
- cingular !!!!
-PIRATES OF THE CARRIBBEAN 2: JOHNNY DEPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and then when we got on Broadway/Table Mesa...i saw someone waiting for the bus and...i was like
me: dude she looks famliar...that backpack
lisa: yea...she does
me: *takes 5 seconds...dude that's MANDY!! MANDY!!!
lisa; HOW DO I TURN BACK??!!!!!!!!!!
me: I DON'T KNOW!!! AHHHHH
*see's skip bus...okay mandy can get on that..ahhh sorry BEN I COULDN"T GIVE YOUR GIRLFRIEND A RIDE GEEZXZ YES I DID WANT TO LEAVE HER STRANDED ON THE TOP OF SOUTH BOULDER BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-AT THE CINEMA PARKING LOT-
me: hey there's people...is that Blake?? ..thomas???!! PERI!!!
HI HI HIHIHIIII
*go towards ben's car, ..and i do love christmas presents tee hee!!! PERI GAVE ME A SEE's Candy sucker...lisa got one too!! and we just kept licking the chocolate treat during the first half of memoirs of a geisha

15 minutes before Geisha
-talking about getting trashed @ an Asian party Thursday Night
-i'm a nice drunk
- and Ben dosen't hate the Ted that I thought (which is Ted Wynfield...o good so they dont' hate one another that is sooo nice) liz why do you hate everyone that i Like???? this KILLS ME

5 minutes before the movie
-WHERE IS MANDY??? Oh there she is, getting off the HOP ..awesome
-WHERE'S MY TICKET?-(Blake)


-REACTIONS TO THE FILM-

I CRIED OKAY yES I DID CRY, ASIAN STORIES CAN MAKE ASIANS CRY LOADS ...i didn't cry my head out..just sniffed and such ...shut up!
MANDY FELL ASLEEP
LISA THOUGHT I FELL ASLEEP AND WANTED TO SSTAB MY SHOULDER AGAIN...THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN REALLY BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PERI'S CELL PHONE WOULDN'T SHUT UP DURING THE MOVIE...thank god not during the sappy scences...cuz that would make me crack up soo horribly
...well we managed to turn it to silent (phew) ...that was kinda embarassing, thank god i turned my on silent before anything happened ...hehhehe i am suave!!
...okay did anyone else think that Japanese culture has...simply outdone itself concerning sexual education...the whole comment about "THE CAVE & THE EEL" GOOD GOD!!!! I DON'T THINK THAT I CAN SYMBOLISE MY SEX AS A CAVE....THANKS A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!

though there is one quote from Miyami that remains in my mind (when the Americans are in Japan)
"So how do we entertain our American friends?"
me: *looks at my group of friends
me: YEA you ...AMERICANS!!! it's so hard to please all of you guys geez

that was a well done film, however i am dissapointed to understand that most of the actresses are Chinese: a bit shameful ...you need to take Chinese actresses and put them in a Japanese story..god Hollywood is deseperate..since ..oh yea there's a small amount of Japanese actresses who are attractive oh DEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ken WATANABE!! YOU ROCK, even though i thought it was going to be the other Watanabe ...who was in 16 candles (and he happens to be gay....life goes on)
Okay Lisa: were clear now, Ken Watanabe is the actor from the Last Samurai..even though I have never actually seen the entire movie...i still know that ...because I'm Asian

-AFTER THE FILM-
We "mosied" out of the theatre, everyone saw me sniffing...ehhh EMO MOMENT!!!!!
HEADED TO BARNES & NOBLE
I GOT PEER PRESSURED TO OPEN MY PRESENT THA TMANDY GAVE ME
I GOT POKED BY Blake..or THomas to open the damn thing
-opened the box finally after running away from people
-ben was on the mobile because of his madre...mehckkk
-mandy was christmas shopping-PROCRASTINATORS UNITE!!!!!!!!!!!!
-looked at magazines w/Peri & lisa...oooo the 20 sexiest men alive according to People magazine...WE LOVE YOU JOHNNY DEPP & VINCE VAUGHN!!!!!!!!!!!!
OOO but why get bad shots of Johnny he's sooo fine!!!!!!!!!
-MANDY'S PRESNET MADE ME SQUEAK AND SCREECH WITH EXCITEMENT...people are finally scared of me now

- LATER @ B&N
-PARENTS UNITE TO PICK UP THEIR CHILDREN
-BLAKE CAN'T PARTY WITH US @ NEW YEARS!!!!! YOU SUCK!!!!!!! (i told himm that)
-hung out with Mandy & ben
-mandy got her stuff giftwrapped
-ben kissed mandy in front of whole foods and had to leave *tear
-bought honey sticks
-caught a HOP (LUCKY US we didn't have to wait)
- took the HOP a little tooo far from the bus station and walked down from the sushi place - and then

I comforted Mandy, and tried to reassure her as we walked to the RTD bus station on 14th/Walnut
and called home to tell them our location and our ETA to my house
-tried to give the best advice to one of my best friends as we got on the DASH
-comfotrted her
-ate loads of rolos as we waited for the driver to get back (THANKS BEN)
- got sparkles all over me...damn it Ben thanks for giving me your retched legacy ...oh wait it's from this Xmas card you gave me AWW ..ehhehe it's hilarious...but remember i'm not too fond of cats so i don't think i will be taking any photos of animals in the near future...heheh but i wont' be in the hospital cuz I"VE GOT ASIAN NINJA SKILLS TO BEAT OFF ANY ANIMAL THAT COMES WITHIN an INCH OF ME!!!
-camera battery sucks (the damn thing wouldn't take any pictures...so much for bringing it)

IN LAFAYETTE
- Walking home, it's a bit cchilly when your wearing a skirt, oh well no worries
- mother rang the mobile: luckily we were within a block from my house...apparenlty we had perfect timing cuz my dad was in the midst of coooking up another dish of xmas eve dinner
- gave mandy her presents, I didn't wrap it..but i told her that I wrapped with my affection (metaphorically speaking people)
and more comfort..and a bit of tears , no worries i hope for now
- ATE A WONDERFUL DINNER
- DRANK some wine with Mandy cuz yea LET HER DRINK GEEZ ..too bad there wasn't anymore cuz like..i only had 50 ml ...in a ...4 oz glass...dude not cool
mandy was a bit tipsy..ehehhehe ...im is fun when your tipsy...or trashed like me ..a few nights ago

Apparently i kept telling people that I loved them (Ted and Ben..and possibly Blake)...a bit of a blur...i kinda remember though hmmmmmm
*ted's taking a steamy shower right now....according to his away message on AIM...o god that sounds quite soothing at this moment
another thing thats seems blissful..right now on Christmas is hanging around in a hot tub ...because i feel a little cold typing...and i do enjoy hot showers/baths
Ben knows all about Bath i mean ...he's from the bloody town..then again he occasionally forgets where the hell it is on the ruddy map \

OH GOSH MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's 12:12 AM ...12/25/05 !!!!
Posted 12/25/2005 at 2:7 AM

Saturday, December 24, 2005

IT'S SNOWING AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
oh and I saw Blood diamond on Friday after much anticiapted cravings for samosa's, and the failed attempt to go sledding ...with the lack of sleds and tubes....yeah it sucked :-D though we all piled into Keller's house and drank hot chocoalte, played pimp's and ho's, spoons and taught our little polish boy "Matt Piskorz" and Ji-Won how to play Pimp's and ho's with giant playing cards.
who showed up?
-lisi
-thomas
- ben
-keller
- chad
- HELEN! I got her confused for zoe..yeah slap me for that
- Matt
-ji-won
- me
...and that's it!

GO SEE BLOOD DIAMOND!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted 12/24/2006 at 6:57 PM

Friday, December 23, 2005

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R

1. Pierce your nose or tongue? nose heheh
2. Be serious or be funny? Both
3. Drink Whole Milk Or Skim Milk? skimi
4. Die in a fire or drown? I hate heat..so drowning sounds good
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A R E Y O U

1. Simple or complicated? both at times
2. Gay? nope...
3. Hardcore?hell yes
4. Honest? BRUTALLY
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DO YOU PREFER

1. Flowers or angels? flowers
2. Gray or black? black
3. Color or black and white photos? both
4. Lust or love? Both
5. Sunrise or sunset? both
6. M&Ms or Skittles?: both
7. Rap or rock?: rap is for losers
8. Staying up late or waking up early? BOTH!!
10. Eating apples or oranges? BOTH!! THEIR ALL FRUIT
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DO YOU PREFER

1. Being hot or cold?: both,
2. Sun or moon? Moon
3. Winter or Fall?:i love both
4. Left or right?:ambi!! i am such a both person
5. Having 10 acquaintances or having 2 best friends: ...best friends rule
6. Sun or rain?: RAIN!1!!
7. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: BOTH at the same time!!
8. Boys or girls: guys te hee
9. Vodka or Jack?: Cabernet excuse me
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ABOUT YOU

What time is it?: 8:57 pm
Name?:Susan
Nickname(s):Nasus
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WHAT DO YOU WANT

Where do you want to live?:Asia..or europe
How many kids do you want?: ...none
What kind of job do you want? lingustics/photojournalist/photographer
Do you want to get married?: meh not right now
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UNIQUE

1. Nervous Habits?: Twitching
2. Are you double jointed?: nope
3. Can you roll your tongue? yes
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? maybe
5. Can you cross your eyes?: heheh no
6. Do you make your bed daily?: yes i do

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CLOTHES, ETC

1. Which shoe goes on first?: ...right sometimes
2. Ever thrown one at someone?: hehehe i wish
3. How much money do you carry in your wallet?none
4. How much jewelry do you wear?: a watch it's a timex
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F O O D

1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: chew it
2. Have you ever eaten Spam?: ugh never
3. Favorite ice cream flavor? any
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? 4
5. What's your favorite beverage?:lemon lime, tea drinks and orange stuff
6. What's your favorite restaurant?: ...Pizza colore and my house

GROOMiNG

1. How often do you brush your teeth?: twice a day
2. How do you wear your hair for the most part?: yep in a pony tail
3. Have you ever dyed/highlighted your hair? nope
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MANNERS

1. Do you swear?: yes
2. Do you ever spit: yeah
3. You cook your own food: yes
4. You do your own chores?: yes
5. You got laid today?: uh i wish
6. You like beef jerky?: NO
7. You like pepsi or coke?:Sprite
8. You plan on going to college?:yES
9. You're happy with your hair?: MHMM it's soft/silky
10. You own a dog?: nope
11. You spend your money wisely?: if only
12. You're always making new friends?: meh i guess
13. You like to swim?: YES
14. Have you ever got bored so you call a friend?: MHMM
15. You're patient?:Oh yes
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LET'S BE HONEST.

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Last Person that...

1. Slept in your bed: Mandy and Peter
2. Saw you cry: my parents..and friends
3. Made you cry: parents
4. Went to the movies with you: Mandy, Peter, and Aunt Dora
5. You went to the mall with: Mandy, Lisa, and Ben
7. You went to dinner with: Mandy, Lisa, and Ben
8. You talked on the phone with: Lisa, Peri, Mandy, and Ben
9. Said 'I love you' to you: apparently to ted cuz iw as smashed last night
10. Broke your heart: ...i don't think so now that i think about it
11. Made you laugh: Peri, mandy, Lisa..and everyone
12. Bought you something: MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY!! WHOO
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Have You Ever...

1. Wished you were the opposite sex: yes
2. Snuck out of your house: yahh
3.Gave money to a homeless person: yup
Posted 12/23/2005 at 11:6 PM
Hey everyone: 2 MORE DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!! THIS IS EXCITING!!!!
Today I had the pleasure of seeing The Chronicles of Narnia with Peter and my awesome Aunt, lucky for me I choose the 12:30 Narnia viewing...why so: SANA MA SAW ME and started yelling my name and I saw her and then it went like so: OH OH!! ANA MA!! *thinking: shit her name is SANA MA!!!

Lana Ma
Anna Ma
Sana Ma

.....i can't cope with this, why does your whole family have rhyming names i don't appreciate this as an Asian ...please don't tell me that your parents have rhyming names...because that's not cool

WYATT-I SAW HIM
SAM-I SAW HIM!!! TOO!!!! YAY!!! FOR COMING BACK FROM VASSAR!!!! i MISSED YOU ALLL
and i heard Jason is in town too i missed him too, shut up everyone
...i wonder if Alex is back in town hmmmmm
my two awesome handsome asian buddies ...I MEAN UHHHH

Last night: ASIAN PARTY @ SONG YING'S
GUESS WHAT: EVEN THOUGH I PREDICTED THAT I WASN'T REALLY GOING TO HAVE FUN...well i did and i got kinda smashed
...not really i felt a bit dizzy but then my head cleared....i was online @ their place and talked to Ben..blake and Ted, apparently I kept telling ted that I loved him ....um shit i guess i was a bit smashed ehhehehehehehe

yesterday before the party: MOVING BOOKS/SHELVING BOOKS @ THE CONDO
ben was there!!! mandy was there!!! I almost scared them, but i didn't ..i just hovered around the screen door, apparently the front door was actually open....i was stupid enough to not realise it was ...unlocked *smacks head

however: joe grub didn't show up ...too busy @ Shakespeare!!!!!!!! that's alright...it was one massive sexy party ...hehehehe KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!
BEN CAN DO CCHEWBACCA NOISES!!!!!! MAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
DOMINO'S CINNASTIX STILL ROCK MY ASIAN SOCKS!! so does arizona ice tea yhummmmm
i ran back home to change and brought some music....heheheh James Bond rules
I"M SORRY I KEEP FORGETTING MY CAMERA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU CAN KICK MY ASS MANDY CUZ I DON'T DESERVE FTO BE A PHOTOWHORE!@!!!!
we also moved boxes from one condo to another, we shoved loads into Ben's St. Michelle...we also locked him in his own car because he was in the trunk and we simply closed the trunk door ehehhehehe
me: okay 1....2.. 3!!!
me /mandy slam the door
HAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *points @ Ben
ben: *shakes his keys and tries to open the trunk from the inside...though failed
i was nice enough to open the trunk manually from the front seat

prior to moving stuff, mandy and me had to walk to her great-relatives condo and i thought i saw a dog
me: AWWWWWWWWWW it's a puppy!! and ...that's ....not a puppy
mandy: *...og cracks up
...it was old lady crouching ...she had puffy hair....I AM NOT BLIND!!!!!!!!
we quickly walked away from the scene and started to ....laugh our heads off


Posted 12/23/2005 at 8:55 PM

Thursday, December 22, 2005

LISA IS BACK!!!!!!!! YAY I AM SOOO HAPPY
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE

I GOT THE LOVE ACTUALLY SOUNDTRACK DUDE I AM STOKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am quite happy i mean i just had a nice hot cup of hot chocolate from Barnes & Noble
yummmm

Today-basically hung around Pearl street, got beeped when we were all in Borders (Ben, Lisa, Mandy, and me) it was amazing, but i am not a criminal at all
me and Lisa laugh manically at Pizza colore...we all had the munchies except ben cuz he had to eat @ Illegal Petes since ehhehehe we showed up a bit ....late
but I WAS MAKING YOUR XMAS PRESENT @ TARGET AND I ALMSOT BROKE THE SCANNER FROM FREAKING OUT SO MUCH!!!!!!!

MEERRY CHRISTMAS/HAPPY CHANUKAH TOO
TO MY LISA FRIEND WHO'S A JEW!!!!!

lisa & me are total dorks...why?
-we both think soo many people are ...gorgeous or...beautiful...or just god
(Trent Reznor, Hal Sparks, Michael Ian Black, MO ROCCO!!!!!!)
there's...also : Ted, Gordon, ...loads of ppl from school...definitley Ben ...since well ben is GORGEOUS..look at that guy..have u ever looked at him? his eyes has a soft aquatic blue with hints of ...like celtic green ....HOLY SHIT I HAVE MOST LIKELY FOUND HIS EYE COLOR...tis only a start!!

i discovered...that I'm beggining to like ted..and that both of us believe that he てづ is ...hot in an odd way, just simply something about him makes him very attractive (...i like his hair ..when he smiles ..i like that too *cracks up)
Posted 12/22/2005 at 12:55 AM

Monday, December 19, 2005

emotions going crazy in my head
i don't know how to feel
i don't know what to say
i am speechless
because of what he said

i got to get started on my chem stuff and math hw
later everyone

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Posted 12/19/2005 at 9:48 PM

Sunday, December 18, 2005

CUTE FLUFFY PANDA CUBS
I LOVE THEM SO OOOOO MUCH THEIR SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it makes my inner self feel like a little kid again...oh the innocent days
i love panda cubs-look at them-they make you get absorbed into their adoable little eyes and fluffy squishy body
the people workign @ the smithsonian zoo are so lucky to hold them while they examine them, and just awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

THEY MAKE YOU FORGET ABOUT YOUR TROUBLES SO WELL
I LOVE PANDAS BEARS!!!!!!!!!!!

look at them!!! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

HE'S IN A BIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ..his fluffy big butt...it's just so cute...*cracks up..awwwwwwwwww

HI!!! yOUR SO CUTE TAI SHAN!!! AWWWWWWW






hehehehe he's so smallL!!!!! and squishy and smalll!! and so damn cute!!!!!!!!!


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!
hi your so cute yes your are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awwww i Just wanna kidnap you
KIDDING....
Posted 12/18/2005 at 8:58 PM

Saturday, December 17, 2005

IT'S SNOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY I LOVE SNOW, I DANCED AROUND IN FLUFFY WHITE COLD SNOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DON'T WANT A LOT FOR CHRISTMAS
THERE IS JUST ONE THING I NEED
I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE PRESENTS
UNDERNEATH THE CHRISTMAS TREE
I JUST WANT YOU FOR MY OWN
MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER KNOW
MAKE MY WISH COME TRUE
ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS ...IS YOU

Posted 12/17/2005 at 10:8 PM

2 Comments
WHO DO YOU WANT. that wasnt supposed to be in caps.
Posted 12/19/2005 at 2:33 PM by ugivepeasachance
actually now i know what you want, i just looked at thep anda, and i want a panda. thats what i want too. a PANDA
Posted 12/19/2005 at 2:34 PM by ugivepeasachance

Friday, December 16, 2005

Number 1: Carlos
How long have you known him/her? Freshmen year
Would you kiss him/her? Maybe hehehe
Does he/she tell you secrets? We actually talk!
What song reminds you of him/her? UTADA HIKARU!!


Number 2: Mandy
How long have you known him/her? since 6th grade
Have you ever dated him/her? hehehhe you wish
Are you close friends with him/her? YES!!! SHE'S MY SHINING STAR
Do you know his/her parents? Yes I do
What is his/her best quality? Artistic, unique, sweet, and a good friend

Number 3: Lisa
How long have you known him/her? since freshemen year
How did you meet him/her? 4th period GOVERNMENT CLASS WITH CAMPBELL-HALE!!!
Is he/she one of your best friends? YES SHE'S MY GIGGLE BUDDY
Do you hang out with him/her a lot? YEs, this whole summer
Do you fight with him/her often? Over what...?

Number 4: Liz Thomas
How long have you known him/her? since freshmen year
Have you ever had a crush on him/her? Uh...no
Does he/she make you happy? We talk about silly things like hot european guys and be like ehheheh I like you!, or pretend to be all emo and fake cry
Have you ever watched a movie with him/her?YES
Would you go anywhere with him/her? ...that depends she better not bring me into a bar and get drunk


Number 5:PERI!
How long have you known him/her? since 6th grade..more 7th
Where did you meet him/her? um at the lunch table
Do you love him/her? YES IN A NON-CREEPY SEXUAL WAY
Do you go to school together? OF COURSE
Do you know a secret about him/her?Um...we love Johnny Depp?
What is the best thing about him/her? The interesting ideas that pop into her head that make me think: that is coool you should do that, and HER MUSIC TASTE AND SHOES..YOU HAVE COOL SHOES
Do you know his/her siblings? no

Number 6: MARIAN
How long have you known him/her? FREHSMEN YEAR
How do you know him/her? Through seeing her waiting 4 her loser cruiser after school
Is he/she a good friend? yep!!!!
Do you hang out with him/her a lot? As much as possible during 4th
Have you ever got him/her a present? ..hehhe mebbe
Are you related to him/her? that ouwld be creepy

Number 7: Keller
How long have you known him/her? THIS YEAR AT THE CHATFIELD GAME
Does he/she know your parents? yea..he was at the front door
Have you ever hurt him/her? maybe because of his adequate tie and marshamallows bursting through his face @ Target tonight
Do you leave him/her many comments?Why yes
What is the best thing about him/her? His humor and optimism..and great acting skills
Do you work with him/her? I'm his speech coach and crack dealer

Number 8: Allie
How long have you known him/her? since sophomore year
Where did you meet him/her? IN YEARBOOK SHE CAME UP WITH NASUS
What song reminds you of him/her? ROCKIN THE SUBURBS!!
Do you hang out with him/her often? AS much as i can
Posted 12/16/2005 at 10:6 PM

1 Comments

awww!

oh snap ben didn't even make the top 8!!?? haha

Posted 12/19/2005 at 2:36 PM by ugivepeasachance

Monday, December 12, 2005

For those of you who didn't see Saturday Night Live two weeks ago, there was this comedian by the name of Dane Cook who happened to host the show that night
Now me and my brother happen to be avid fans of this ...prodigious comedian ..he is amazing, and we both love his humor cuz..somehow a dash of violence is utterly hilarious
"next time you see a kid with a cone of ice cream, just run up to him and smack his treat right in the face and then you'll run away and scream "you'll remember me!!! and he will, when he's like 50 he'll tell all his friends, "dude one time i was eating my ice cream and this guy just knocked it in my face..then he told me that i'll remember him forever ..and I DID!!"

Now Dane cook was the host of the show, but then the musical guest was a musician by the name of James Blunt. and I've never heard of him ever before, as we continued to watch the show, James Blunt premiered on the Saturday night live stage when Dane cook presented him
and his voice is amazing, the first song he sang was entitled "Your Beautiful", i thought that he was an incredible singer from the first several notes he decided to sing on ...and here's the thing: His songs have enlightened my brother too
Peter likes James Blunt...no he hasn't gone emo, but according to him the guy has a really cool accent and has really cool music , wow someone can detect a British accent in an instant ..this guy is awesome
go find his CD on Amazon "Back in Bedlam" because it is worth it




Posted 12/12/2005 at 9:54 PM
可怜的人并有可恨指出
-Chinese proverb


-basically means that people who suffer, suffer from the event that led to the consequence of the their suffering so..therefore: don't pity suffering people

that's all i have to say to you people who like to get drunk and i shouldn't pity you cuz you were stupid enough to get drunk/while smoking weed

so the next time you fuck up, i won't be there cuz you fucked yourself up

Posted 12/12/2005 at 9:28 PM

3 Comments
I love getting drunk!!
Posted 12/12/2005 at 9:39 PM by Thinktank58
who did that happen to? huuuuuuuuuuuuuh. life sucks. ben actually called me. i wont die after all.
Posted 12/13/2005 at 9:27 AM by ugivepeasachance
MY PELVIC BONE HURTS YEAH DEEP DOWN IT HURTS THE BONE IT DOES!
Posted 12/14/2005 at 2:50 PM by ugivepeasachance
if i forgot to do something for you..please tell me cuz i've been in a forgetful mode for the past few weeks and yes it's pissing me off too
Posted 12/12/2005 at 8:39 PM

Sunday, December 11, 2005

BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BEN DIDN'T SHOW UP TO MY RECITAL GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
it's alright i'm okay, he gave me a hug, but still he owes
cuz....he forgOT ABOUT IT WHEN I REMINDED EVERYONE ABOUT IT ALL THIS FUCKING WEEK!!!!
AGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways, i fumed while i was playing the piano, even mandy heard me puffing out carbon dioxide into the church
....but Claire du lune, i played that..and everyone liked it,
i really like the piano i played-it is perfect for this piece cuz it's has gentle keys and ...a really soft sounds *awww rubs the piano ur a good piano YES YOU ARE!!
Posted 12/11/2005 at 7:53 PM

1 Comments
ben is an ass. well, liz said so.

Saturday, December 10, 2005

bla!HHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
bus drivers suck, they took adv of my brother and made him pay another quarter but we refused cuz we payed the exact fare
what a senial white bastard
Posted 12/10/2005 at 6:40 PM
-My mom helps loads with her fucking morning attitude

-people like to severely criticize others who don't deserve it

-people shouldn't yell and be all ego about needing shit

other people enjoy being stupid
-for example: acting like a dumb blond bitch and laughing like a ditzy whore just dosen't prove that the guys like your presence cuz why: DAVID IS ANNOYED BY IT JESUS CHRIST

-telling me that you need xmas, well get this: I don't celebrate xmas like you do and just becuause i don't have a fucking xmas tree in my damn house doesn't mean that I am an American

-people shouldn't leave you crying as your departing from a fucking train station

- Pretending to be sarcastic and cool just to get a boyfriend is really a smart move you dumb whore

- Forcing me to go to Chinese club sounds way too communist and stupid

- People who compalin about that thier paycheck is way too low and you just got $500 for the month -fuck you

- people who like to yell at me for no specific reason

- i hate people who are for this war
- i hate people who don't give a valid reason to hating the french
-i don't understand why people hate the french
- i dont understand why people won't say anything about their 80$ jeans that were made by sweatshop workers
-I don't understand why people say that sweat shop workers are happy
- I don't understand why we are concerned about celebrities instead of our reality
- i don't understand why my grandma has to criticize me
- i dont understand why i am still treated like i was 5
-i don't understand why people can't understand me
- i don't understand why people like to judge me

I am sick of being misunderstood

Posted 12/10/2005 at 11:55 AM

2 Comments
I hate the French, and I support the war. If you started shit, you have to finish it. If you didn't want it, you shouldn't have started in the first place.

People hate the French because we saved their asses and handed back their country to them. Twice. And they don't back us up when we ask for help, in fact, they critize us all the time.

If you want to be mad at something, check out news about Africa on BBC.

I hate being treated like a kid too.

Many sweat shop workers ARE happy b/c they have a job.
Posted 12/10/2005 at 1:45 PM by Thinktank58

Yeah, the war is pretty dumb. Way dumb, actually.

The French? Nothing wrong with them, so, why hate them? After all, they are certainly a lot better than the United Fucking States of America. They're smarter, better, and healthier: they can swallow a 100% saturated fat chocolate and still be healthier than an American. And they have every right to criticize the US, after all, we do the same to them, and in WW2, the US and British actually fired upon the French to "keep them safe from the war."

Sweat shop workers are not happy, you're right, Susan.

Anyway, most imperialist dogs (sorry, I meant Americans) are just convinced of their own superiority because of their great army. Which would swamp under the might of the French and Chinese armies. Don't worry about the idiot sentiments (sorry, American thoughts.) They're wrong anyway.

Posted 12/11/2005 at 3:40 PM by blackhawk789
Well see the problem is with xmas presents is that ...i have no idea what to get for my secret santa person...hmmm either the karma sutra or how about this for a dash of bittterness: Winston Middlebrook...ouch double whammy

I don't have many desires this year, which probably means that I am quite content with what I am this year and it also might mean that I am not so selfish

There's just a few cd's that I would like to get, though I manage through scrolling through my friends ipod's ..and you have no idea how much money I have saved from scrolling through ipods, getting burned cd's of many artists (sorry guys but u make enough money anyways..shut up METALLICA)

The United States should include all the love actually soundtracks for crying out loud because the one track that I truly crave for is only listed on the UK soundtracks and it will cost me 6 pounds...and well do I live in the UK? uhh no


So here's to the people who are looking for xmas ideas
- look on my Amazon wishlist , searech for shimizu_nike6@msn.com
- um Ben/Mandy: YOU DON'T NEED TO FIND ME A BOYFRIEND CUZ I'm THROUGH WITH DATING
- a pegboard..like ultra big lol
- stickers!!!!!!!!!!!! nevermind i'll find the one's i want lol
- hot cocoa packets..like the one's u can buy @ costco lmfao
Cd cases/blank cds...

I don't want a relationship, what's the point in them well..in high school i'm sorry but ..it's not for me, It's probably best for others but not me.
Posted 12/10/2005 at 10:28 AM

Friday, December 9, 2005

alright it has came upon my realisation that no matter what I do for this year's yearbook I will not be able to fulfill my ...well my current goal: which is to be the Editor in Chief next year

here are several reasons why
-I will probably go head-to-head with Whitney Hight
- I won't get the position because I am a minority
- I don't posess white skin
- I'm Asian
- thus means they'll profile me when I try to apply for Editor-in-chief
-Whitney Koprowski will probably tell Jenni all the attitude problems i have which i don't..it's just ur a bitch ...brutal truth
- I don't have a 900$ Canon Rebl that my rich parents decided to buy
- they don't see that i have talent
- My influences on the yearbook are not appreciated (like the idea for the photos and prints are always sacked)
...they just want a Christian to be on the yearbook cuz they dont' appreciate the Asian influence cuz it's soooo FORIEGN
Posted 12/9/2005 at 11:48 PM

Thursday, December 8, 2005

i'm still at school and i'm starving to death
Posted 12/8/2005 at 5:56 PM

1 Comments

you.

are.

a.

unspirited.

loser.

Posted 12/9/2005 at 9:27 AM by ugivepeasachance

Monday, December 5, 2005

1.What color is most reflective of you?
Blue

2. How did you get the idea for your profile name?
I wore my barre to school and my LA teacher started calling me Pepe le wang

3. What time were you born?
in the morning

3. What song are you playing now, or wish you were playing?
The Hand that feeds-Nine Inch Nails

4. Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
Charles Schultz

5. What color underwear are you wearing?
white, a symbol of purity

6. Do you want a baby?
Yea and then never go to college? uh fuck babies

7. What did you do this morning?
Ate scrambled eggs w/salsa on toast with a cup of cranberry juice

8. What does your mom do for a living?
I have no clue

9. What is/are your pet's name(s)?
Susan, peter, Austin (their fish)

10. What ended your last relationship(s)?
Discovering who we were actually, finding out that people change

11. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number?
12

12. What was the last concert you attended?
Nine Inch Nails

13. Who was with you?
Keller, Krystal, Alex, Annie and...this cool kid who drived us

14. What was the last movie you watched?
SLEEPY HOLLOW


15. Who do you dislike most at this moment?
Mr.White, and the 70 mph winds

16. What food do you crave right now?
Something spicy

17. Did you dream last night?
Yes and I was cozy in my bed

18. What was the last TV show you watched?
Crossing Jordan, Family Guy and Grey's Anatomy

19. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
....nothing at this time,

20. What is to the left of you?
dude it's my printer and the door to the lavtory

21. What was the last thing you ate?
rice porridge w/mandarin oranges, rice with stir fried potatoes, and onions w/chicken oohhh and spinach!

22. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
Ben, Keller, Thomas, Dan Leifer, ....umm yea i have no boyfriend either and hell yea i feel good

23. Write a song lyric that's in your head?
There are things that you should know
and ...sunset in my veins

24. Who last IMd you?
Lukeyoda...aka Nitin

25. When was the last time you cut your hair?
last march

26. Are you on any meds?
Nope

27. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
right side

28. What shirt are you wearing?
Adidas t-shirt w/a running jacket

29. What color is your razor?
silver

30. What is your favorite frozen treat?
Popscicles and ice cream

31. How many tattoos do you have?
none

32. What's your favorite store?
i like buffalo exchange, old navy and diesel

33. Are you thirsty?
Yes I am, where's the wine?

34. Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
Never

35. Who's someone you haven't seen in a while and miss?
....um no one cuz guys suck

36. What did you do last night?
Watch TV FINALLY

37. Do you care what people think about you?
No it's their fault if they judge me

38. Have you ever done something to instigate trouble?
FUCK YES

39. What song(s) do you think ex's listen to and think of you?
....um "I hate everything about you"-three days grace

40. What song(s) do you listen to and think of ex's?
Breathe-Michelle Branch


48. What is one thing you wish you were better at?
telling the truth, studying for a change...for math

49. Do you ever see things in movies/television and think they stole your life?
holy shit yes

50. What is across the room from you?
my queen size bed....mehhhi neeed sleep!!!!!

Posted 12/5/2005 at 10:18 PM

1 Comments

you and your quizzes, you silly. hey so your recital is at one, AND three??? ok thats a long time you wanna grab grub afterward or what? are u busy friday? are you wantin' to do some snow shenanigans on saturday? and what about thursday? and i'm never calling ben again. lol.

Posted 12/6/2005 at 2:43 PM by ugivepeasachance

Thursday, December 1, 2005

-must get more photos of prints
i need help with all my friends as we go on a photo expedition this weekend !!!!!!!!!!!
-finish chp 21 outlines
- TAKE MORE PHOTOS~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted 12/1/2005 at 8:4 PM

2 Comments
hi im ben
Posted 12/1/2005 at 8:43 PM by RecycleBen
what about tonight/ this evening/ whatnot first rate entertainment tonight at four o' clock mand'ys recital woooo hoo
Posted 12/2/2005 at 11:1 AM by ugivepeasachance