Thursday January 17, 2008

I'm taking a "Issues w/Asian Americans" course...and my friend mentioned that it's best type of therapy for me ..I guess it is, because I've been having problems with self-identity. Am I Chinese American..American Chinese...Asian American? or just American...or Chinese? Am I happy? or am I just happy for the commune..? (family I mean) what I'm doing in college is it for me or the benefit of my parent's pride? It feels like when I do something for myself...it's to impress my parents and not anything else, and I'm confused as to whether I can have my own pursuit of happiness. I know I can, I'm just afraid at times to speak out for what I want, how I actually feel instead of just hiding or putting on a mask. What am I afraid of? ...why should I be afraid anyways? Why am I afraid of speaking out the truth..Why am I always toning down how I actually feel about situations...why am I so docile? Why can't I rebel... why am I so shy? Posted 1/17/2008 at 2:57 PM

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1 Comments

This is a question I've asked myself a million times. As the children of first generation immigrant parents, we're kind of a lost generation. But, the Irish, Italians, Jews, and Russian immigrants all had to go through it, so it's just a part of our culture growing up.

Posted 1/18/2008 at 7:7 PM by Thinktank58